Ashamed

I am ashamed of my body. I decided to do something today and I went for a walk in a popular park. I knew it was a good thing that I was outside and exercising, but every time I passed by someone I felt ashamed. I am ashamed of my body- how fat and ugly it looks. I know what it looks like fit and sexy, and I also know what it looks like now- fat and ugly. I walk and I wish that i was in that fit and sexy place now. I almost feel like it's hopeless to think I could look like that again... if it is even possible, it will take a LONG time to get there. I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel, it's so far. I just want to walk and be proud of my body.